BURNT NORTON

I

Time present and time past
Are both perhaps present in time future,
And time future contained in time past.
If all time is eternally present
All time is unredeemable.
What might have been is an abstraction
Remaining a perpetual possibility
Only in a world of speculation.
What might have been and what has been
Point to one end, which is always present.
Footfalls echo in the memory
Down the passage which we did not take
Towards the door we never opened
Into the rose-garden. My words echo
Thus, in your mind.
But to what purpose
Disturbing the dust on a bowl of rose-leaves
I do not know.
Other echoes
Inhabit the garden. Shall we follow?
Quick, said the bird, find them, find them,
Round the corner. Through the first gate,
Into our first world, shall we follow
The deception of the thrush? Into our first world.
There they were, dignified, invisible,
Moving without pressure, over the dead leaves,
In the autumn heat, through the vibrant air,
And the bird called, in response to
The unheard music hidden in the shrubbery,
And the unseen eyebeam crossed, for the roses
Had the look of flowers that are looked at.
There they were as our guests, accepted and accepting.
So we moved, and they, in a formal pattern,
Along the empty alley, into the box circle,
To look down into the drained pool.
Dry the pool, dry concrete, brown edged,
And the pool was filled with water out of sunlight,
And the lotos rose, quietly, quietly,
The surface glittered out of heart of light,
And they were behind us, reflected in the pool.
Then a cloud passed, and the pool was empty.
Go, said the bird, for the leaves were full of children,
Hidden excitedly, containing laughter.
Go, go, go, said the bird: human kind
Cannot bear very much reality.
Time past and time future
What might have been and what has been
Point to one end, which is always present.



II

Garlic and sapphires in the mud
Clot the bedded axle-tree.
The trilling wire in the blood
Sings below inveterate scars
Appeasing long forgotten wars.
The dance along the artery
The circulation of the lymph
Are figured in the drift of stars
Ascend to summer in the tree
We move above the moving tree
In light upon the figured leaf
And hear upon the sodden floor
Below, the boarhound and the boar
Pursue their pattern as before
But reconciled among the stars.

At the still point of the turning world. Neither flesh nor fleshless;
Neither from nor towards; at the still point, there the dance is,
But neither arrest nor movement. And do not call it fixity,
Where past and future are gathered. Neither movement from nor towards,
Neither ascent nor decline. Except for the point, the still point,
There would be no dance, and there is only the dance.
I can only say, there we have been: but I cannot say where.
And I cannot say, how long, for that is to place it in time.
The inner freedom from the practical desire,
The release from action and suffering, release from the inner
And the outer compulsion, yet surrounded
By a grace of sense, a white light still and moving,
Erhebung without motion, concentration
Without elimination, both a new world
And the old made explicit, understood
In the completion of its partial ecstasy,
The resolution of its partial horror.
Yet the enchainment of past and future
Woven in the weakness of the changing body,
Protects mankind from heaven and damnation
Which flesh cannot endure.
Time past and time future
Allow but a little consciousness.
To be conscious is not to be in time
But only in time can the moment in the rose-garden,
The moment in the arbour where the rain beat,
The moment in the draughty church at smokefall
Be remembered; involved with past and future.
Only through time time is conquered.



III

Here is a place of disaffection
Time before and time after
In a dim light: neither daylight
Investing form with lucid stillness
Turning shadow into transient beauty
With slow rotation suggesting permanence
Nor darkness to purify the soul
Emptying the sensual with deprivation
Cleansing affection from the temporal.
Neither plenitude nor vacancy. Only a flicker
Over the strained time-ridden faces
Distracted from distraction by distraction
Filled with fancies and empty of meaning
Tumid apathy with no concentration
Men and bits of paper, whirled by the cold wind
That blows before and after time,
Wind in and out of unwholesome lungs
Time before and time after.
Eructation of unhealthy souls
Into the faded air, the torpid
Driven on the wind that sweeps the gloomy hills of London,
Hampstead and Clerkenwell, Campden and Putney,
Highgate, Primrose and Ludgate. Not here
Not here the darkness, in this twittering world.

Descend lower, descend only
Into the world of perpetual solitude,
World not world, but that which is not world,
Internal darkness, deprivation
And destitution of all property,
Desiccation of the world of sense,
Evacuation of the world of fancy,
Inoperancy of the world of spirit;
This is the one way, and the other
Is the same, not in movement
But abstention from movement; while the world moves
In appetency, on its metalled ways
Of time past and time future.



IV

Time and the bell have buried the day,
The black cloud carries the sun away.
Will the sunflower turn to us, will the clematis
Stray down, bend to us; tendril and spray
Clutch and cling?

Chill
Fingers of yew be curled
Down on us? After the kingfisher's wing
Has answered light to light, and is silent, the light is still
At the still point of the turning world.



V

Words move, music moves
Only in time; but that which is only living
Can only die. Words, after speech, reach
Into the silence. Only by the form, the pattern,
Can words or music reach
The stillness, as a Chinese jar still
Moves perpetually in its stillness.
Not the stillness of the violin, while the note lasts,
Not that only, but the co-existence,
Or say that the end precedes the beginning,
And the end and the beginning were always there
Before the beginning and after the end.
And all is always now. Words strain,
Crack and sometimes break, under the burden,
Under the tension, slip, slide, perish,
Decay with imprecision, will not stay in place,
Will not stay still. Shrieking voices
Scolding, mocking, or merely chattering,
Always assail them. The Word in the desert
Is most attacked by voices of temptation,
The crying shadow in the funeral dance,
The loud lament of the disconsolate chimera.

The detail of the pattern is movement,
As in the figure of the ten stairs.
Desire itself is movement
Not in itself desirable;
Love is itself unmoving,
Only the cause and end of movement,
Timeless, and undesiring
Except in the aspect of time
Caught in the form of limitation
Between un-being and being.
Sudden in a shaft of sunlight
Even while the dust moves
There rises the hidden laughter
Of children in the foliage
Quick now, here, now, always—
Ridiculous the waste sad time
Stretching before and after.

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(a itálico, o extracto por mim publicado aqui)
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(restantes 3 'quartets' aqui)
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SALTO EM ALTURA

I
A primeira forma é ainda
elástica; as outras endurecem
no ar, mais angulosas;
mas todas pesam,
elaborando as leis da queda:
e caem; graves; reduzidas
ao espaço do seu peso;
o voo é singular abstracto,
melhor, a metáfora das asas,
que subentende coisas
por enquanto sem leis;
mas o plural, os voos, não:
tornam as formas nítidas,
limitam-nas à sua opacidade;
e a cada impulso no ar,
o peso reconduz os corpos
ao início do voo:
os voos são regressos.

II
Diz-se que os anjos voam
doutro modo; leves;
que não levam peso
quando partem:
a nossa miséria já filtrada,
a sua miserciórdia imponderável;
flutuam; pairam; vogam:
verbos de pouca densidade;
cânones vigiaram
o crescimento das asas
nas pinturas heréticas;
concílios redigiram normas
a impor asas mais breves:
para que voem; ut volent;
basta a sua essência aérea;
e assim, nenhum anjo sofreu
as leis reais do nosso peso; nem pôde,
por isso, conhecer-nos.

III
No alto, as cumeadas
sustentam o voo dos pastores;
saltos de fraga a fraga; enquanto
as nuvens, os rebanhos,
na sua luz difícil,
duram ainda: apoiados
à mesma substância; terra, ar;
que torna idênticos, ao longe,
o céu, as últimas vertentes;
depois as águas voltam;
caudal fechando o ciclo,
a transumância; e arrastam tudo
às terras baixas, às aldeias
donde os pastores partiram
para subir; nas asas súbitas
do verão; com peso a mais: ovelhas;
merendas duras; a linguagem
dentro das camas, dos estábulos.

IV
Começam a nascer
vocábulos velozes; uma gramática
desagregando outra que desconhece
o espaço; e as hospedeiras
do ar; únicos
anjos vivos; ficam
para trás, entregues
a acelerações pesadas,
à descida diária em aeroportos
que as atrem como ímanes;
vocábulos urgentes
abrindo o céu atéao céu vazio; onde dirigem
os voos já sem peso; embora
uma cápsula regresse;
protectora, materna; e possa vir
apenas confiar-me os seus
três gémeos mortos.

V
Sente-se a variação
na atmosfera do quarto; uma corrente
de ar? com a porta,
as janelas fechadas?
o sopro vem talvez da estante:
poemas, dicionários;
como se a biblioteca desprendesse
substâncias voláteis; ou
que tentam voar; o frémito,
o pressentimento, acorda
os móveis fascinados; pouco a pouco,
no aro do abat-jour,
onde a diferença é mais sensível,
condensa-se o rumor das primeiras
palavras: afinal, são elas;
e logo que os seus voos;
anteriores à escrita; as precipitam
no papel, começa-se a escrever.

VI
O saltador em altura
conseguiu transpor
os dois metros e vinte;
músculos a ascenderam
só por si; o treino, a obsessão: à neve,
no estádio sem ninguém;
este filme analisa,
ao retardador, cada um dos seus saltos:
o sonho a decompor-se;
a refazer-se; em fotogramas
sucessivos; como disse,
a primeira forma é ainda
elástica; as outras endurecem
no ar, mais angulosas;
mas todas pesam,
elaborando as leis da queda:
e caem; graves; reduzidas
ao espaço do seu peso.
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(a itálico, o extracto por mim publicado aqui)
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Trabalho o dia todo como um monge
e à noite vagueio, como um gato
à cata de amor… Vou sugerir
à Cúria que me santifique.
Com efeito, respondo à mistificação
com a mansidão. Olho com olhos
de imagem os que vão linchar-me.
Observo o meu massacre com a coragem
serena de um sábio. Pareço
sentir ódio, mas escrevo
versos cheios de amor atento.
Estudo a perfídia como um fenómeno
fatal, como se dela não fosse objecto.
Tenho pena dos jovens fascistas,
e aos velhos, que são para mim formas
do mais horrível mal, oponho
apenas a violência da razão.
Passivo como um pássaro que, voando,
tudo vê, e, no seu voo para o céu,
leva no coração a consciência
que não perdoa.

(a itálico, o extracto publicado por mim aqui)
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TENTATIVE DE DESCRIPTION D'UN DÍNER DE TÊTES A PARIS-FRANCE

Ceux qui pieusement...
Ceux qui copieusement...
Ceux qui tricolorent
Ceux qui inaugurent
Ceux qui croient
Ceux qui croient croire
Ceux qui cro-croa
Ceux qui ont des plumes
Ceux qui grignotent
Ceux qui andromaquent
Ceux qui dreadnouhetent
Ceux qui majusculent
Ceux qui chantent en mesure
Ceux qui brossent à reluire
Ceux qui ont du ventre
Ceux qui baissent les yeux
Ceux qui savent découper le poulet
Ceux qui sont chauves à l'intérieur de la tête
Ceux qui bénissent les meutes
Ceux qui font les honneurs du pied
Ceux qui debout les morts
Ceux qui baionnette... on
Ceux qui donnent des canons aux enfants
Ceux qui donnent des enfants aux canons
Ceux qui flottent et ne sombrent pas
Ceux qui ne prennent pas Le Pirée pour un homme
Ceux que leurs ailes de géants empêchent de voler
Ceux qui plantent en rêve des tessons de bouteille sur la grande muraille de Chine
Ceux qui mettent un loup sur leur visage quand ils mangent du moutont
Ceux qui volent des oeufs et qui n'osent les faire cuire
Ceux qui ont quatre mille huit cent dix mètres de Mont Blanc, trois cents de Tour Eiffel, vingt-cinq centimètres de tour de poitrine et qui en sont fiers
Ceux qui mamellent de la France
Ceux qui courent, volent et nous vengent, tous ceux-là, et beaucoup d'autres, entraient fièrement à l' Élysée en faisant craquer les graviers, tous ceux-là se bousculaient, se dépêchaient, car il y avait un grand diner de têtes et chacun s'était fait celle qu'il voulait.
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Il fait chaud. Amoureuses, les allumettes-tisons se vautrent sur leur trottoir, c'est le printemps, l'acné des collégiens, et voilá la fille du sultan et le dompteur de mandragores, voilà les pélicans, les fleurs sur les balcons, voilà les arrosoirs, c'est la belle saison.
Le soleil brille pour tout le monde, il ne brille pas dans les prisons, il ne brille pas pour ceux qui travaillent dans la mine,
ceux qui écaillent le poisson
ceux qui mangent la mauvaise viande
ceux qui fabriquent les épingles à cheveux
ceux qui soufflent vides les bouteilles que d'autres boiront pleines
ceux qui coupent le pain avec leur couteau
ceux qui passent leurs vacances das les usines
ceux qui ne savent pas ce qu'il faut dire
ceux qui traient les vaches et ne boivent pas de lait
ceux qu'on n'endort pas chez le dentiste
ceux qui crachent leurs poumons dans le métro
ceux qui fabriquent dans les caves les stylos avec lesquels d'autres écriront en plein air tout va pour le mieux
ceux qui en ont trop à dire pour pouvoir le dire
ceux qui ont du travail
ceux qui n'en ont pas
ceux qui en cherchent pas
ceux qui donnent à boirent aux chevaux
ceux qui regardent leur chien mourir
ceux qui ont le pain quotidien relativement hebdomadaire
ceux qui l'hiver se chauffent dans les églises
ceux que le suisse envoie se chauffer dehors
ceux qui croupissent
ceux qui voudraient mangent pour vivre
ceux qui voyagent sous les roues
ceux qui regardent la Seine couler
ceux qu'on engage, qu'on remercie, qu'on augmente, qu'on diminue, qu'on manipule, qu'on fouille, qu'on assome
ceux dont on prend les empreintes
ceux qu'on fait sortir des rangs au hasard et qu'on fusille
ceux qu'on fait défiler devant l'Arc
ceux qui ne savent pas se tenir dans le monde entier
ceux qui n'ont jamais vu la mer
ceux qui sentent le lin parce qu'ils travaillent le lin
ceux qui n'ont pas l'eau courante
ceux qui sont voués au bleu horizon
ceux qui jettent le sel sur la neige moyennant un salaire absolument dérisoire
ceux qui vieillissent plus vite que les autres
ceux qui ne se sont pas baissés pour ramasser l'épingle
ceux qui crèvent d'ennui le dimanche après-midi
parce qu'ils voient venir le lundi
et le mardi, et le mercredi, et le jeudi, et le vendredi
et le samedi
et le dimanche après-midi.
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(a itálico, o extracto por mim publicado aqui)
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cd Promise, de Vassilis Tsabropoulos
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À memória de Fernando Pessoa

Vem, serenidade!
Vem cobrir a longa
fadiga dos homens,
este antigo desejo de nunca ser feliz
a não ser pela dupla humidade das bocas.

Vem, serenidade!
Faz com que os beijos cheguem à altura dos ombros
e com que os ombros subam à altura dos lábios,
faz com que os lábios cheguem à altura dos beijos.

Carrega para a cama dos desempregados
todas as coisas verdes, todas as coisas vis
fechadas no cofre das águas:
os corais, as anémonas, os monstros sublunares,
as algas, porque um fio de prata lhes enfeita os cabelos.

Vem, serenidade,
com o país veloz e virginal das ondas,
com o martírio leve dos amantes sem Deus,
com o cheiro sensual das pernas no cinema,
com o vinho e as uvas e o frémito das virgens,
com o macio ventre das mulheres violadas,
com os filhos que os pais amaldiçoam,
com as lanternas postas à beira dos abismos,
e os segredos e os ninhos e o feno
e as procissões sem padre, sem anjos e, contudo,
com Deus molhando os olhos
e as esperanças dos pobres.

Vem, serenidade,
com a paz e a guerra
derrubar as selvagens
florestas do instinto.

Vem, e levanta
palácios na sombra.
Tem a paciência de quem deixa entre os lábios
um espaço absoluto.

Vem, e desponta,
oriunda dos mares,
orquídea fresca das noites vagabundas,
serena espécie de contentamento,
surpresa, plenitude.

Vem dos prédios sem almas e sem luzes,
dos números irreais de todas as semanas,
dos caixeiros sem cor e sem família,
das flores que rebentam nas mãos dos namorados,
dos bancos que os jardins afogam no silêncio,
das jarras que os marujos trazem sempre da China,
dos aventais vermelhos com que as mulheres
esperam
a chegada da força e da vertigem.

Vem, serenidade,
e põe no peito sujo dos ladrões
a cruz dos crimes sem cadeia,
põe na boca dos pobres o pão que eles precisam,
põe nos olhos dos cegos a luz que lhes pertence.

Vem nos bicos dos pés para junto dos berços,
para junto das campas dos jovens que morreram,
para junto das artérias que servem
de campo para o trigo, de mar para os navios.

Vem, serenidade!
E do salgado bojo das tuas naus felizes
despeja a confiança,
a grande confiança.
Grande como os teus braços,
grande serenidade!

E põe teus pés na terra,
e deixa que outras vozes
se comovam contigo
no Outono, no Inverno,
no Verão, na Primavera.

Vem, serenidade,
para que se não fale
nem de paz nem de guerra nem de Deus,
porque foi tudo junto
e guardado e levado
para a casa dos homens.

Vem, serenidade,
vem com a madrugada,
vem com os anjos de oiro que fugiram da Lua,
com as nuvens que proíbem o céu,
vem com o nevoeiro.

Vem com as meretrizes que chamam da janela,
o volume dos corpos saciados na cama,
as mil aparições do amor nas esquinas,
as dívidas que os pais nos pagam em segredo,
as costas que os marinheiros levantam
quando arrastam o mar pelas ruas.

Vem, serenidade,
e lembra-te de nós,
que te esperamos há séculos sempre no mesmo sítio,
um sítio aonde a morte tem todos os direitos.

Lembra-te da miséria dourada dos meus versos,
desta roupa de imagens que me cobre
o corpo silencioso,
das noites que passei perseguindo uma estrela,
do hálito, da fome, da doença, do crime,
com que dou vida e morte
a mim próprio e aos outros.

Vem, serenidade,
e acaba com o vício
de plantar roseiras no duro chão dos dias,
vício de beber água
com o copo do vinho milagroso do sangue.

Vem, serenidade,
não apagues ainda
a lâmpada que forra
os cantos do meu quarto,
o papel com que embrulho meus rios de aventura
em que vai navegando o futuro.

Vem, serenidade!
E pousa, mais serena que as mãos de minha Mãe,
mais húmida que a pele marítima do cais,
mais branca que o soluço, o silêncio, a origem,
mais livre que uma ave em seu voo,
mais branda que a grávida brandura do papel em que escrevo,
mais humana e alegre que o sorriso das noivas,
do que a voz dos amigos, do que o sol nas searas.

Vem, serenidade,
para perto de mim e para nunca.

De manhã, quando as carroças de hortaliça
chiam por dentro da lisa e sonolenta
tarefa terminada,
quando um ramo de flores matinais
é uma ofensa ao nosso limitado horizonte,
quando os astros entregam ao carteiro surpreendido
mais um postal da esperança enigmática,
quando os tacões furados pelos relógios podres,
pelas tardes por trás das grades e dos muros,
pelas convencionais visitas aos enfermos,
formam, em densos ângulos de humano desespero,
uma nuvem que aumenta a vã periferia
que rodeia a cidade,
é então que eu te peço como quem pede amor:
Vem, serenidade!

Com a medalha, os gestos e os teus olhos azuis,
vem, serenidade!

Com as horas maiúsculas do cio,
com os músculos inchados da preguiça,
vem, serenidade!

Vem, com o perturbante mistério dos cabelos,
o riso que não é da boca nem dos dentes
mas que se espalha, inteiro,
num corpo alucinado de bandeira.

Vem, serenidade,
antes que os passos da noite vigilante
arranquem as primeiras unhas da madrugada,
antes que as ruas cheias de corações de gás
se percam no fantástico cenário da cidade,
antes que, nos pés dormentes dos pedintes,
a cólera lhes acenda brasas nos cinco dedos,
a revolta semeie florestas de gritos
e a raiva vá partir as amarras diárias.

Vem, serenidade,
leva-me num vagon de mercadorias,
num convés de algodão e borracha e madeira,
na hélice emigrante, na tábua azul dos peixes,
na carnívora concha do sono.

Leva-me para longe
deste bíblico espaço,
desta confusão abúlica dos mitos,
deste enorme pulmão de silêncio e vergonha.
Longe das sentinelas de mármore
que exigem passaporte a quem passa.

A bordo, no porão,
conversando com velhos tripulantes descalços,
crianças criminosas fugidas à polícia,
moços contrabandistas, negociantes mouros,
emigrados políticos que vão
em busca da perdida liberdade.
Vem, serenidade
e leva-me contigo.

Com ciganos comendo amoras e limões,
e música de harmónio, e ciúme, e vinganças,
e subindo nos ares o livre e musical
facho rubro que une os seios da terra ao Sol.

Vem, serenidade!
Os comboios nos esperam.
Há famílias inteiras com o jantar na mesa,
aguardando que batam, que empurrem, que irrompam
pela porta levíssima,
e que a porta se abra e por ela se entornem
os frutos e a justiça.

Serenidade, eu rezo:
Acorda minha Mãe quando ela dorme,
quando ela tem no rosto a solidão completa
de quem passou a noite perguntando por mim,
de quem perdeu de vista o meu destino.

Ajuda-me a cumprir a missão de poeta,
a confundir, numa só e lúcida claridade,
a palavra esquecida no coração do homem.

Vem, serenidade
e absolve os vencidos,
regulariza o trânsito cardíaco dos sonhos
e dá-lhes nomes novos,
novos ventos, novos portos, novos pulsos.

E recorda comigo o barulho das ondas,
as mentiras da fé, os amigos medrosos,
os assombros da Índia imaginada,
o espanto aprendiz da nossa fala,
ainda nossa, ainda bela, ainda livre
destes montes altíssimos que tapam
as veias ao Oceano.

Vem, serenidade,
e faz que não fiquemos doentes, só de ver
que a beleza não nasce dia a dia na terra.

E reúne os pedaços dos espelhos partidos,
e não cedas demais ao vislumbre de vermos
a nossa idade exacta
outra vez paralela ao percurso dos pássaros.

E dá asas ao peso
da melancolia,
e põe ordem no caos e carne nos espectros,
e ensina aos suicidas a volúpia do baile,
e enfeitiça os dois corpos quando eles se apertarem,
e não apagues nunca o fogo que os consome,
o impulso que os coloca, nus e iluminados,
no topo das montanhas, no extremo dos mastros,
na chaminé do sangue.

Serenidade, assiste
à multiplicação original do Mundo:
Um manto terníssimo de espuma,
um ninho de corais, de limos, de cabelos,
um universo de algas despidas e retrácteis,
um polvo de ternura deliciosa e fresca.

Vem, e compartilha
das mais simples paixões,
do jogo que jogamos sem parceiro,
dos humilhantes nós que a garganta irradia,
da suspeita violenta, do inesperado abrigo.

Vem, com teu frio de esquecimento,
com tua alucinante e alucinada mão,
e põe, no religioso ofício do poema,
a alegria, a fé, os milagres, a luz!

Vem, e defende-me
da traição dos encontros,
do engano na presença de Aquele
cuja palavra é silêncio,
cujo corpo é de ar,
cujo amor é demais
absoluto e eterno
para ser meu, que o amo.

Para sempre irreal,
para sempre obscena,
para sempre inocente,
Serenidade, és minha.
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Por onde passaste tu
que não soubeste passar?
Pela sandália do tempo
pelo cílio do luar
pelo cílio do vento
pelo tímpano do mar?
Por onde passaste tu
que não soubeste passar?

Por onde passaste tu
que me ficaste cá dentro
tenaz do fogo divino
irmão pinho ou aloendro?
Por onde passaste tu
que me ficaste cá dentro?

Pois bem: nos campos da fome
ou nos caminhos do frio
se eu encontrasse o teu nome
lançava-te o desafio:
por onde passaste tu
pétala viva dos cerdos
rei das chagas e dos podres
- por onde passaste tu
não passaram as minhas dores!

Nasci da mãe que não tive
do pai que nunca terei
e aquilo que sobrevive
é o irmão que não sei:
uma espécie de fogueira
de corpo que me deslumbra.
Tudo o mais à minha beira
é uma réstia de sombra.
- Por onde passaste tu
com artelhos de penumbra?

Eis-me. Eis-me incendiado
por não saber perdoar.
Meu irmão passa de lado
- Eu sei como hei-de passar.
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The Ballad Of Reading Gaol
Oscar Wilde
In memoriam
C. T. W.
Sometime trooper of the Royal Horse Guards
obiit H.M. prison, Reading, Berkshire
July 7, 1896


lido por Niall Toibin


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I

He did not wear his scarlet coat,
For blood and wine are red,
And blood and wine were on his hands
When they found him with the dead,
The poor dead woman whom he loved,
And murdered in her bed.

He walked amongst the Trial Men
In a suit of shabby grey;
A cricket cap was on his head,
And his step seemed light and gay;
But I never saw a man who looked
So wistfully at the day.

I never saw a man who looked
With such a wistful eye
Upon that little tent of blue
Which prisoners call the sky,
And at every drifting cloud that went
With sails of silver by.

I walked, with other souls in pain,
Within another ring,
And was wondering if the man had done
A great or little thing,
When a voice behind me whispered low,
‘That fellow’s got to swing.’

Dear Christ! the very prison walls
Suddenly seemed to reel,
And the sky above my head became
Like a casque of scorching steel;
And, though I was a soul in pain,
My pain I could not feel.

I only knew what hunted thought
Quickened his step, and why
He looked upon the garish day
With such a wistful eye;
The man had killed the thing he loved,
And so he had to die.

Yet each man kills the thing he loves,
By each let this be heard,
Some do it with a bitter look,
Some with a flattering word,
The coward does it with a kiss,
The brave man with a sword!

Some kill their love when they are young,
And some when they are old;
Some strangle with the hands of Lust,
Some with the hands of Gold:
The kindest use a knife, because
The dead so soon grow cold.

Some love too little, some too long,
Some sell, and others buy;
Some do the deed with many tears,
And some without a sigh:
For each man kills the thing he loves,
Yet each man does not die.

He does not die a death of shame
On a day of dark disgrace,
Nor have a noose about his neck,
Nor a cloth upon his face,
Nor drop feet foremost through the floor
Into an empty space.

He does not sit with silent men
Who watch him night and day;
Who watch him when he tries to weep,
And when he tries to pray;
Who watch him lest himself should rob
The prison of its prey.

He does not wake at dawn to see
Dread figures throng his room,
The shivering Chaplain robed in white,
The Sheriff stern with gloom,
And the Governor all in shiny black,
With the yellow face of Doom.

He does not rise in piteous haste
To put on convict-clothes,
While some coarse-mouthed Doctor gloats,
and notes
Each new and nerve-twitched pose,
Fingering a watch whose little ticks
Are like horrible hammer-blows.

He does not know that sickening thirst
That sands one’s throat, before
The hangman with his gardener’s gloves
Slips through the padded door,
And binds one with three leathern thongs,
That the throat may thirst no more.

He does not bend his head to hear
The Burial Office read,
Nor, while the terror of his soul
Tells him he is not dead,
Cross his own coffin, as he moves
Into the hideous shed.

He does not stare upon the air
Through a little roof of glass:
He does not pray with lips of clay
For his agony to pass;
Nor feel upon his shuddering cheek
The kiss of Caiaphas.

II

Six weeks our guardsman walked the yard,
In the suit of shabby grey:
His cricket cap was on his head,
And his step seemed light and gay,
But I never saw a man who looked
So wistfully at the day.

I never saw a man who looked
With such a wistful eye
Upon that little tent of blue
Which prisoners call the sky,
And at every wandering cloud that trailed
Its ravelled fleeces by.

He did not wring his hands, as do
Those witless men who dare
To try to rear the changeling Hope
In the cave of black Despair:
He only looked upon the sun,
And drank the morning air.

He did not wring his hands nor weep,
Nor did he peek or pine,
But he drank the air as though it held
Some healthful anodyne;
With open mouth he drank the sun
As though it had been wine!

And I and all the souls in pain,
Who tramped the other ring,
Forgot if we ourselves had done
A great or little thing,
And watched with gaze of dull amaze
The man who had to swing.

And strange it was to see him pass
With a step so light and gay,
And strange it was to see him look
So wistfully at the day,
And strange it was to think that he
Had such a debt to pay.

For oak and elm have pleasant leaves
That in the springtime shoot:
But grim to see is the gallows-tree,
With its adder-bitten root,
And, green or dry, a man must die
Before it bears its fruit!

The loftiest place is that seat of grace
For which all worldlings try:
But who would stand in hempen band
Upon a scaffold high,
And through a murderer’s collar take
His last look at the sky?

It is sweet to dance to violins
When Love and Life are fair:
To dance to flutes, to dance to lutes
Is delicate and rare:
But it is not sweet with nimble feet
To dance upon the air!

So with curious eyes and sick surmise
We watched him day by day,
And wondered if each one of us
Would end the self-same way,
For none can tell to what red Hell
His sightless soul may stray.

At last the dead man walked no more
Amongst the Trial Men,
And I knew that he was standing up
In the black dock’s dreadful pen,
And that never would I see his face
In God’s sweet world again.

Like two doomed ships that pass in storm
We had crossed each other’s way:
But we made no sign, we said no word,
We had no word to say;
For we did not meet in the holy night,
But in the shameful day.

A prison wall was round us both,
Two outcast men we were:
The world had thrust us from its heart,
And God from out His care:
And the iron gin that waits for Sin
Had caught us in its snare.

III

In Debtors’ Yard the stones are hard,
And the dripping wall is high,
So it was there he took the air
Beneath the leaden sky,
And by each side a Warder walked,
For fear the man might die.

Or else he sat with those who watched
His anguish night and day;
Who watched him when he rose to weep,
And when he crouched to pray;
Who watched him lest himself should rob
Their scaffold of its prey.

The Governor was strong upon
The Regulations Act:
The Doctor said that Death was but
A scientific fact:
And twice a day the Chaplain called,
And left a little tract.

And twice a day he smoked his pipe,
And drank his quart of beer:
His soul was resolute, and held
No hiding-place for fear;
He often said that he was glad
The hangman’s hands were near.

But why he said so strange a thing
No Warder dared to ask:
For he to whom a watcher’s doom
Is given as his task,
Must set a lock upon his lips,
And make his face a mask.

Or else he might be moved, and try
To comfort or console:
And what should Human Pity do
Pent up in Murderers’ Hole?
What word of grace in such a place
Could help a brother’s soul?

With slouch and swing around the ring
We trod the Fools’ Parade!
We did not care: we knew we were
The Devil’s Own Brigade:
And shaven head and feet of lead
Make a merry masquerade.

We tore the tarry rope to shreds
With blunt and bleeding nails;
We rubbed the doors, and scrubbed the floors,
And cleaned the shining rails:
And, rank by rank, we soaped the plank,
And clattered with the pails.

We sewed the sacks, we broke the stones,
We turned the dusty drill:
We banged the tins, and bawled the hymns,
And sweated on the mill:
But in the heart of every man
Terror was lying still.

So still it lay that every day
Crawled like a weed-clogged wave:
And we forgot the bitter lot
That waits for fool and knave,
Till once, as we tramped in from work,
We passed an open grave.

With yawning mouth the yellow hole
Gaped for a living thing;
The very mud cried out for blood
To the thirsty asphalte ring:


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And we knew that ere one dawn grew fair
Some prisoner had to swing.

Right in we went, with soul intent
On Death and Dread and Doom:
The hangman, with his little bag,
Went shuffling through the gloom:
And each man trembled as he crept
Into his numbered tomb.

That night the empty corridors
Were full of forms of Fear,
And up and down the iron town
Stole feet we could not hear,
And through the bars that hide the stars
White faces seemed to peer.

He lay as one who lies and dreams
In a pleasant meadow-land,
The watchers watched him as he slept,
And could not understand
How one could sleep so sweet a sleep
With a hangman close at hand.

But there is no sleep when men must weep
Who never yet have wept:
So we—the fool, the fraud, the knave—
That endless vigil kept,
And through each brain on hands of pain
Another’s terror crept.

Alas! it is a fearful thing
To feel another’s guilt!
For, right within, the sword of Sin
Pierced to its poisoned hilt,
And as molten lead were the tears we shed
For the blood we had not spilt.

The Warders with their shoes of felt
Crept by each padlocked door,
And peeped and saw, with eyes of awe,
Grey figures on the floor,
And wondered why men knelt to pray
Who never prayed before.

All through the night we knelt and prayed,
Mad mourners of a corse!
The troubled plumes of midnight were
The plumes upon a hearse:
And bitter wine upon a sponge
Was the savour of Remorse.

The grey cock crew, the red cock crew,
But never came the day:
And crooked shapes of Terror crouched,
In the corners where we lay:
And each evil sprite that walks by night
Before us seemed to play.

They glided past, they glided fast,
Like travellers through a mist:
They mocked the moon in a rigadoon
Of delicate turn and twist,
And with formal pace and loathsome grace
The phantoms kept their tryst.

With mop and mow, we saw them go,
Slim shadows hand in hand:
About, about, in ghostly rout
They trod a saraband:
And the damned grotesques made arabesques,
Like the wind upon the sand!

With the pirouettes of marionettes,
They tripped on pointed tread:
But with flutes of Fear they filled the ear,
As their grisly masque they led,
And loud they sang, and long they sang,
For they sang to wake the dead.

‘Oho!’ they cried, ‘The world is wide,
But fettered limbs go lame!
And once, or twice, to throw the dice
Is a gentlemanly game,
But he does not win who plays with Sin
In the secret House of Shame.’

No things of air these antics were,
That frolicked with such glee:
To men whose lives were held in gyves,
And whose feet might not go free,
Ah! wounds of Christ! they were living things,
Most terrible to see.

Around, around, they waltzed and wound;
Some wheeled in smirking pairs;
With the mincing step of a demirep
Some sidled up the stairs:
And with subtle sneer, and fawning leer,
Each helped us at our prayers.

The morning wind began to moan,
But still the night went on:
Through its giant loom the web of gloom
Crept till each thread was spun:
And, as we prayed, we grew afraid
Of the Justice of the Sun.

The moaning wind went wandering round
The weeping prison-wall:
Till like a wheel of turning steel
We felt the minutes crawl:
O moaning wind! what had we done
To have such a seneschal?

At last I saw the shadowed bars,
Like a lattice wrought in lead,
Move right across the whitewashed wall
That faced my three-plank bed,
And I knew that somewhere in the world
God’s dreadful dawn was red.

At six o’clock we cleaned our cells,
At seven all was still,
But the sough and swing of a mighty wing
The prison seemed to fill,
For the Lord of Death with icy breath
Had entered in to kill.

He did not pass in purple pomp,
Nor ride a moon-white steed.
Three yards of cord and a sliding board
Are all the gallows’ need:
So with rope of shame the Herald came
To do the secret deed.

We were as men who through a fen
Of filthy darkness grope:
We did not dare to breathe a prayer,
Or to give our anguish scope:
Something was dead in each of us,
And what was dead was Hope.

For Man’s grim Justice goes its way,
And will not swerve aside:
It slays the weak, it slays the strong,
It has a deadly stride:
With iron heel it slays the strong,
The monstrous parricide!

We waited for the stroke of eight:
Each tongue was thick with thirst:
For the stroke of eight is the stroke of Fate
That makes a man accursed,
And Fate will use a running noose
For the best man and the worst.

We had no other thing to do,
Save to wait for the sign to come:
So, like things of stone in a valley lone,
Quiet we sat and dumb:
But each man’s heart beat thick and quick,
Like a madman on a drum!

With sudden shock the prison-clock
Smote on the shivering air,
And from all the gaol rose up a wail
Of impotent despair,
Like the sound that frightened marshes hear
From some leper in his lair.

And as one sees most fearful things
In the crystal of a dream,
We saw the greasy hempen rope
Hooked to the blackened beam,
And heard the prayer the hangman’s snare
Strangled into a scream.

And all the woe that moved him so
That he gave that bitter cry,
And the wild regrets, and the bloody sweats,
None knew so well as I:
For he who lives more lives than one
More deaths than one must die.

IV

There is no chapel on the day
On which they hang a man:
The Chaplain’s heart is far too sick,
Or his face is far too wan,
Or there is that written in his eyes
Which none should look upon.

So they kept us close till nigh on noon,
And then they rang the bell,
And the Warders with their jingling keys
Opened each listening cell,
And down the iron stair we tramped,
Each from his separate Hell.

Out into God’s sweet air we went,
But not in wonted way,
For this man’s face was white with fear,
And that man’s face was grey,
And I never saw sad men who looked
So wistfully at the day.

I never saw sad men who looked
With such a wistful eye
Upon that little tent of blue
We prisoners called the sky,
And at every careless cloud that passed
In happy freedom by.

But there were those amongst us all
Who walked with downcast head,
And knew that, had each got his due,
They should have died instead:
He had but killed a thing that lived,
Whilst they had killed the dead.

For he who sins a second time
Wakes a dead soul to pain,
And draws it from its spotted shroud,
And makes it bleed again,
And makes it bleed great gouts of blood,
And makes it bleed in vain!

Like ape or clown, in monstrous garb
With crooked arrows starred,
Silently we went round and round
The slippery asphalte yard;
Silently we went round and round,
And no man spoke a word.

Silently we went round and round,
And through each hollow mind
The Memory of dreadful things
Rushed like a dreadful wind,
And Horror stalked before each man,
And Terror crept behind.

The Warders strutted up and down,
And kept their herd of brutes,
Their uniforms were spick and span,
And they wore their Sunday suits,
But we knew the work they had been at,
By the quicklime on their boots.

For where a grave had opened wide,
There was no grave at all:
Only a stretch of mud and sand
By the hideous prison-wall,


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And a little heap of burning lime,
That the man should have his pall.

For he has a pall, this wretched man,
Such as few men can claim:
Deep down below a prison-yard,
Naked for greater shame,
He lies, with fetters on each foot,
Wrapt in a sheet of flame!

And all the while the burning lime
Eats flesh and bone away,
It eats the brittle bone by night,
And the soft flesh by day,
It eats the flesh and bone by turns,
But it eats the heart alway.

For three long years they will not sow
Or root or seedling there:
For three long years the unblessed spot
Will sterile be and bare,
And look upon the wondering sky
With unreproachful stare.

They think a murderer’s heart would taint
Each simple seed they sow.
It is not true! God’s kindly earth
Is kindlier than men know,
And the red rose would but blow more red,
The white rose whiter blow.

Out of his mouth a red, red rose!
Out of his heart a white!
For who can say by what strange way,
Christ brings His will to light,
Since the barren staff the pilgrim bore
Bloomed in the great Pope’s sight?

But neither milk-white rose nor red
May bloom in prison-air;
The shard, the pebble, and the flint,
Are what they give us there:
For flowers have been known to heal
A common man’s despair.

So never will wine-red rose or white,
Petal by petal, fall
On that stretch of mud and sand that lies
By the hideous prison-wall,
To tell the men who tramp the yard
That God’s Son died for all.

Yet though the hideous prison-wall
Still hems him round and round,
And a spirit may not walk by night
That is with fetters bound,
And a spirit may but weep that lies
In such unholy ground,

He is at peace—this wretched man—
At peace, or will be soon:
There is no thing to make him mad,
Nor does Terror walk at noon,
For the lampless Earth in which he lies
Has neither Sun nor Moon.

They hanged him as a beast is hanged:
They did not even toll
A requiem that might have brought
Rest to his startled soul,
But hurriedly they took him out,
And hid him in a hole.

They stripped him of his canvas clothes,
And gave him to the flies:
They mocked the swollen purple throat,
And the stark and staring eyes:
And with laughter loud they heaped the shroud
In which their convict lies.

The Chaplain would not kneel to pray
By his dishonoured grave:
Nor mark it with that blessed Cross
That Christ for sinners gave,
Because the man was one of those
Whom Christ came down to save.

Yet all is well; he has but passed
To Life’s appointed bourne:
And alien tears will fill for him
Pity’s long-broken urn,
For his mourners will be outcast men,
And outcasts always mourn

V

I know not whether Laws be right,
Or whether Laws be wrong;
All that we know who lie in gaol
Is that the wall is strong;
And that each day is like a year,
A year whose days are long.

But this I know, that every Law
That men have made for Man,
Since first Man took his brother’s life,
And the sad world began,
But straws the wheat and saves the chaff
With a most evil fan.

This too I know—and wise it were
If each could know the same—
That every prison that men build
Is built with bricks of shame,
And bound with bars lest Christ should see
How men their brothers maim.

With bars they blur the gracious moon,
And blind the goodly sun:
And they do well to hide their Hell,
For in it things are done
That Son of God nor son of Man
Ever should look upon!

The vilest deeds like poison weeds,
Bloom well in prison-air;
It is only what is good in Man
That wastes and withers there:
Pale Anguish keeps the heavy gate,
And the Warder is Despair.

For they starve the little frightened child
Till it weeps both night and day:
And they scourge the weak, and flog the fool,
And gibe the old and grey,
And some grow mad, and all grow bad,
And none a word may say.

Each narrow cell in which we dwell
Is a foul and dark latrine,
And the fetid breath of living Death
Chokes up each grated screen,
And all, but Lust, is turned to dust
In Humanity’s machine.

The brackish water that we drink
Creeps with a loathsome slime,
And the bitter bread they weigh in scales
Is full of chalk and lime,
And Sleep will not lie down, but walks
Wild-eyed, and cries to Time.

But though lean Hunger and green Thirst
Like asp with adder fight,
We have little care of prison fare,
For what chills and kills outright
Is that every stone one lifts by day
Becomes one’s heart by night.

With midnight always in one’s heart,
And twilight in one’s cell,
We turn the crank, or tear the rope,
Each in his separate Hell,
And the silence is more awful far
Than the sound of a brazen bell.

And never a human voice comes near
To speak a gentle word:
And the eye that watches through the door
Is pitiless and hard:
And by all forgot, we rot and rot,
With soul and body marred.

And thus we rust Life’s iron chain
Degraded and alone:
And some men curse, and some men weep,
And some men make no moan:
But God’s eternal Laws are kind
And break the heart of stone.

And every human heart that breaks,
In prison-cell or yard,
Is as that broken box that gave
Its treasure to the Lord,
And filled the unclean leper’s house
With the scent of costliest nard.

Ah! happy they whose hearts can break
And peace of pardon win!
How else may man make straight his plan
And cleanse his soul from Sin?
How else but through a broken heart
May Lord Christ enter in?

And he of the swollen purple throat,
And the stark and staring eyes,
Waits for the holy hands that took
The Thief to Paradise;
And a broken and a contrite heart
The Lord will not despise.

The man in red who reads the Law
Gave him three weeks of life,
Three little weeks in which to heal
His soul of his soul’s strife,
And cleanse from every blot of blood
The hand that held the knife.

And with tears of blood he cleansed the hand,
The hand that held the steel:
For only blood can wipe out blood,
And only tears can heal:
And the crimson stain that was of Cain
Became Christ’s snow-white seal.

VI

In Reading gaol by Reading town
There is a pit of shame,
And in it lies a wretched man
Eaten by teeth of flame,
In a burning winding-sheet he lies,
And his grave has got no name.

And there, till Christ call forth the dead,
In silence let him lie:
No need to waste the foolish tear,
Or heave the windy sigh:
The man had killed the thing he loved,
And so he had to die.

And all men kill the thing they love,
By all let this be heard,
Some do it with a bitter look,
Some with a flattering word,
The coward does it with a kiss,
The brave man with a sword!


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No sorriso louco das mães batem as leves

gotas de chuva. Nas amadas

caras loucas batem e batem

os dedos amarelos das candeias.

Que balouçam. Que são puras.

Gotas e candeias puras. E as mães

aproximam-se soprando os dedos frios.

Seu corpo move-se

pelo meio dos ossos filiais, pelos tendões

e órgãos mergulhados,

e as calmas mães intrínsecas sentam-se

nas cabeças filiais.

Sentam-se, e estão ali num silêncio demorado e apressado,

vendo tudo,

e queimando as imagens, alimentando as imagens,

enquanto o amor é cada vez mais forte.

E bate-lhes nas caras, o amor leve.

O amor feroz.

E as mães são cada vez mais belas.

Pensam os filhos que elas levitam.

Flores violentas batem nas suas pálpebras.

Elas respiram ao alto e em baixo. São

silenciosas.

E a sua cara está no meio das gotas particulares

da chuva,

em volta das candeias. No contínuo

escorrer dos filhos.

As mães são as mais altas coisas

que os filhos criam, porque se colocam

na combustão dos filhos, porque

os filhos estão como invasores dentes-de-leão

no terreno das mães.

E as mães são poços de petróleo nas palavras dos filhos,

e atiram-se, através deles, como jactos

para fora da terra.

E os filhos mergulham em escafandros no interior

de muitas águas,

e trazem as mães como polvos embrulhados nas mãos

e na agudeza de toda a sua vida.

E o filho senta-se com a sua mãe à cabeceira da mesa,

e através dele a mãe mexe aqui e ali,

nas chávenas e nos garfos.

E através da mãe o filho pensa

que nenhuma morte é possível e as águas

estão ligadas entre si

por meio da mão dele que toca a cara louca

da mãe que toca a mão pressentida do filho.

E por dentro do amor, até somente ser possível

amar tudo,

e ser possível tudo ser reencontrado por dentro do amor.



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THE THING I AM


Já esqueci o meu nome. Não sou Borges

(Ele morreu em La Verde, frente às balas)

Nem Acevedo, sonhando batalhas,

Nem meu pai, inclinado sobre o livro

Ou aceitando a morte na manhã,

Nem Haslam, decifrando alguns versículos

Das Escrituras, longe de Nortúmbria,

Nem Suárez, da carga com as lanças.

Já mal serei a sombra que projectam

Essas íntimas sombras intrincadas.

Sou a sua memória, mas sou o outro.

Que esteve, como Dante e como todos

Os homens, no mais raro Paraíso

E nos muitos Infernos necessários.

Sou a carne e a cara que não vejo.

Sou no final do dia o resignado

Que dispõe de maneira algo diferente

As vozes que há na língua castelhana

Para narrar as fábulas que esgotam

Tudo isso a que se chama a literatura.

Sou o que folheava enciclopédias,

O estudante tardio de brancas têmporas

Ou grisalhas, o preso dessa casa

Cheia de livros que não têm letras,

Onde a penumbra esconde um temeroso

Hexâmetro aprendido junto ao Ródano,

Aquele que quer salvar o orbe que foge

Do fogo e dessas águas que há na Ira

Com um pouco de Fedro e de Virgílio.

Assalta-me o passado com imagens.

Sou a memória abrupta da esfera

De Magdeburgo, de duas letras rúnicas

Ou de um dístico de Angelus Silesius.

Sou o que não conhece outro consolo

Salvo o de recordar o feliz tempo.

Sou por vezes a sorte imerecida.

Sou o que sabe que é apenas eco,

Esse que quer morrer inteiramente.

Talvez eu seja aquele que és nos sonhos.

Sou a coisa que sou. Já disse Shakespeare.

Sou o que sobrevive hoje aos cobardes

E aos fátuos que existiram..
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Pequenas estrelas que mudam de cor, frias

pêras ao alto

de raízes queimadas, ainda doces, profundamente

cor de turquesa - eu tudo sei.

Como a época leve que entra,

como as crianças que despertam e sorriem

lapidarmente, e morrem

sem que se note, na própria clareira viva

do seu sorriso.

A onda que envolve os peixes, e dos peixes

absorve o rápido estremecimento - eu tudo sei.

Porque mudo, queimo-me.

Porque as ondas me batem na boca.


Pequenas estrelas passadas de cor para cor, pêras

que rolam de um degrau

para outro degrau de amadurecimento. Enquanto

estou deitado sob o céu brutal, e a noite

avança terrivelmente plácida.

E por baixo a terra vive, abstracta

e espalhada.

Quero dizer: eu tudo sei.

Junto aos ossos em gelo bate uma veia

que sobe, quente; que em silêncio ascende

e bate na língua: - Eu amo o pão que amadurece

no fogo.

Amo a ideia que a morte alimenta

agora na noite. Cinza sobre pepitas.

O açafrão nas pedras encarnadas.


Cerro os olhos para ouvir durante toda a noite,

e todo o mês, e recomeçando no interior

da minha vida - o sangue.

Amarga e difusa loucura do sangue

cercado pelo mundo - eu tudo sei.

Humildade e esgotamento e, quando

a boca estremece, tarefa e depois solidão.

Sei como se pensa obscuramente.

Vejo que a luz se encurva nos campos de urtigas,

e a mão se encurva na luz.

A mão que retém a faca e desliza

sobre a mesa ao encontro do pão maduro.

Porque eu amo a fome.


E eis que todo esse puro tempo passado

se levanta, enquanto respiro debaixo da luz.

Com a dor dentro, levanta-se; com

um forte delírio e a luz imensa - e eu sei.

Ouçam: é neste país onde cheiro

um ramo de sal, a terra pútrida.

Amo a penumbra de uma cara, a brancura

parada de um sorriso no meio da água

profundamente esquecida - sei

tudo, tudo.

Que nada existe e as coisas nascem no tocar

de minha mão inundada.

E é preciso esperar enquanto se morre,

e fica o campo sob o céu que se queima

preciosamente.

Tenho agora a idade - e sei tudo.

Digo: minha alegria é tenebrosa.


E eu desejaria levantar-me levemente

sobre as paisagens que se enchem de chuva

apaixonada.

Desejaria estar em cima, no meio da alegria,

e abrir os dedos tão devagar que ninguém sentisse

a melancolia da minha inocência.

Tanto desejaria ser destruído

por um lento milagre interior.


Cegar com o rosto contra um ramo abrupto

de relâmpagos.

Eu sei. Quero dizer: eu amo

essa morte no meio da luz, entre crisálidas e gotas,

à noite, de dia -

quando o mês se extingue num supremo amadurecimento.



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